Transcendence The Summer of 2024
Note: Oldest daughter stated in our last conversation “You stopped communicating with me.”
The reason why I sent you so many books for Christmas and your birthdays was because it was the only way I could communicate the things I wanted you to know share and discuss with you as you grew up. There was very, very little communication before you were trafficked to Texas and it became less and less every day once you were there. Now You were entering High School, into boyfriends, girlfriends, teenage things, and then your first child, your first and second baby daddies, and three more sons. You were simply unavailable or not to be found, especially by text or telephone with 2000 miles between us. The phone calls voice mails and emails to whatever addresses was provided at the time were to no avail.
Oldest daughter “I already talked to You once this year, I don’t have the time. Do not ever contact Me again.” I knew then that she was in unwavering complicity with the horrific treatment of Your grandfather and his disappearance, She has sold Her soul to Your Childless Aunt. This attitude, the quick and immediate exit from the telephone conversation, the certainty in her voice demonstrated a wall, a wall that that served as a buffer, protection and safety in her mind. That was her perception, that was her reality but she had not yet experienced the consequences of her own actions.
This woman, this Childless Aunt whose sworn words deeply contradicted those of her husbands, a man not at all familiar with dark and demonic ways of his wife but drawn in by marriage, had bought my daughters soul.
Oldest daughter hid her face in shame as she fell from grace keeping the Childless Aunts secret. She could not endure another word with the Man she once called Daddy. The easiest way out was to attribute blame and declare no fault even if by ignorance or lack of knowledge, there was no one that knew more or anything that she did not. The arrogance and self indulgence reminded of when The Childless Aunt returned from College and her parents and siblings were now just Stupid N****rs because she was educated and had a degree. There was no way she would ever humble herself to anyone nor ever have a need to asked even one question about anything as she knew everything and her every action was preplanned, successfully carried out as intended. This was the case with the selection of Fathers that contributed to the birth of her 1st daughter, 1st son, 3rd son and 2nd daughter, they were all planned.
It is now starting to appear that there was a certain ease at ending, walking away from or having real challenges with men. Like Natalie, there were difficulties growing up in Texas and that was an important time in their lives for such a drastic change.
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